(about not writing any more)
Hard to breathe
can’t find air
hard to see
can’t find me.
Spinning into
deepest
darkest
blackest hole.
Head hurts
feeling dizzy
stomach aches
mind wanders.
No focus
(heavy sigh),
verge of tears
can’t see why.
Stuttering words
like bullets
poorly aimed
with no target.
Heart is broken
feel so open
exposed and
foolish.
Want to sleep
but lie awake
pray the lord
my soul to take
body heavy
sight uncertain
hearing sounds
(heavy sigh)
. . . why
did she leave
without saying
goodbye?